Sixteenth Race

[gingerspeedster]

[ Voice - Warden Filter after the Doctor's comment ]

I know that time works differently on the barge, but it's hard to get comfortable knowing that trouble's waiting back home. I never really appreciated before how hard some of the wardens here work, knowing that lives are at stake. It's so weird not being able to call Linda and ask how the kids are doing. I know how they're doing, but it's not the same.

How do you guys do it? Sit around all day, reading or going about your business, knowing that while you're stuck here trying to do a long job, the people you care about are dead or dying all the time?

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Private; Voice.

[some-kinda-hero.livejournal.com]

I had to come to terms with that back home. Here or there or wherever, they're going to die. Without me.

[Pulls in her lips.]

I dunno, it's been so long since I arrived I just...try to forget. I focus on the Inmates, my Inmate. I focus on my new family and friends here. Here, I can help. Here, I make a difference. Has to count for something.

Private; Voice.

[gingerspeedster.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure I can forget. And I'm not sure I could forgive myself if I did. It's easier when there's something to talk about, something to do, something to focus on. These quiet days, when there's nothing? I just keep thinking about them, waiting for me, not knowing if they're going to live or die and waiting for me to shift that balance.

Private; Voice.

[some-kinda-hero.livejournal.com]

So come find me on those days. We'll try to figure something out. Walk Chester or go to the CES or the greenhouse. I'll help when I can, Wally. S'what friends are for.

Private; Voice.

[gingerspeedster.livejournal.com]

[ There's a pause, and then a sigh. ]

Thanks Claire. That's really sweet of you.

Private; Voice.

[some-kinda-hero.livejournal.com]

Anything for you, Wally.

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